`CHARMAINE (:

2010-07-28T15:17:00.000+08:00

2010-07-02T11:07:00.002+08:00

hellooooooooooooooooo alll !!!!! sorrry for not posting soooooo long !!! The internet was screwed , so cant use , the coms with my dad .. so yeah . But soon , i'm gonna get my awsome Macbook :D , on 7th July i think ? Now i'm using my mums laptop ... so .. stay tuned ! ;D

Not anymore .

2010-04-11T13:15:00.005+08:00

Seriously , whats with you . Why are you ignoring me for no apparent reason ?

If there's a reason , tell me , if its my attitude , i'm sorry , i'll change .

Today's really boring , Celia made me cry . :X . Did not go to church today , cause Yi Yue had something on . I just dont understand why am i trying so hard . If there's something wrong with me , seriously , just tell me la . Unless what you want is really ignoring , i really have no choice lor . I've been trying to cover up what i had been feeling for so long . & i still am . How long will i be able to cover up ?

2010-04-10T22:01:00.002+08:00

I've recently contacted a friend again , haha . The feelings awsome . You know , childhood friends and neighbours for 8 years , more then half of my life . & one day you never talked to each other , and he just moved out . Its really sad . But God is so great , lols ! We are in contact again and it has been AGES since we have talked to each other . Its really awsome !!!

Sprained my arm .

2010-03-29T08:49:00.002+08:00

impossible for us to be together .

Damn mann , i sprain my throwing arm . NUOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ): , haix ...
So today , rest at home lor , need to so many assessment book questions , so sianz . Oh yahh , yesterday Hannah Marie and i chatted on the phone about some crazy stuffs , haha :D , it was fun . I went to HOGC yesterday too , the sermon was great , I'm looking forward to the Easter survice too yeahh (: . So far i invited 2 people to the service , but both of them decline , one got class outing , the other parents don't allow . D: . aww . This weeks a really short one , since i'm not in school today , that means i only need to go school tomorrow and the day after ! (YAY) , okay . Nothing much to post about now , i just wanna know more about him .. (: , anyw , TATA !

Can't stand it anymore .

2010-03-24T19:41:00.002+08:00

I tried to ignore what is happening . I forgived although i was damn angry . But can you not take this forgivness for granted ? Treated you so well . This is how you treat me back ? I really miss those times , and i really don't mind you with them . But you always pang seh , even after you said "sorry" , nothing changed . Like you just said for the sake of saying . I feel neglected . Tell me , am i just your replacement ?! When you yourself gets pangsehed , then you find me right ? Thats how you had been ever since this year . I really wanna give up liao .

In my head ,

2010-03-19T22:40:00.002+08:00

Start of something new .

Today i met syasya for breakfast to go to Src at Padang . HAHA , we were at Macs when he asked to meet me at Serangoon mrt . So we met up w himt too lo , wait for him so long ._. , he needs to learn how to be eariler ! LOL . Anyw , we mrt-ed there . Syasya & i were early . LOL . So waitwaitwait , finally the rest of the C girls arrived , execpt a few . Hmm , then played throw & catch . After tt , halfway during the boys match , it rained -.- . so stayed in the shelter . Went lunching w Oliva , then came back , changed , did warm up , then when the match start , RAIN AGAIN .

Conclusion - todays weather , SUCKS .

I don't wanna go s-o-l-o .

2010-03-18T13:41:00.005+08:00

Am i still the " Charmaine " i used to be ? I can't tell . & i can't change if i don't know .

Today , it rained heavily halfway during softball training . So we went to the indoor sports hall to do the hot box thing o.o . Anyway , i'm suhpose to meet a friend at 2pm @ bishan libary to study , and i'm still posting . hehe . :D , anyway , toodles !

Tomorrow's the src tornement , i just hope everything will be alright after that . I don't know how to react now . I feel not too good now . Breaking down . It happened last year , i really hope this is not happening again .

i don't wanna go s-o-l-o .

2010-03-17T14:56:00.006+08:00

Talent wins games, but teamwork and intelligence wins championships.

Okayy , i've got things sorted out . Lets put our differences aside , we'll win as a team (: . Haha , anyways , today morning went for extra training , woke up late -.- , sapose to START at 9am , i woke up at 9am . bleah :X , anyw , i made my way there , thn train fielding , batting , the usual stuff . After tt , went w celia to Macs and then go home . Yeap , thats today . Boring right ? LOL .

Ohh yaa , ytd , i watched Alice in the wonderland with my mother . It was nice (: . Then on the way back home on the bus , got this seriously retarded ( I really mean it ) guy , kept staring at me . My mum noticed . Then she say that hes a stalker O.O , wa lauu ehh , its damn scary . I don't believe at first . So she pretend say " Charmaine , time to get off this stop " Then that guy chiong down the bus 1st -.- . Omfg , then when we never get down , he got up . Its fxxking scary . When it was REALLY time to get down . I go down 1st then , that guy oso wanna go down , i stare and diao him ( YES ) , then my mum told me that when i went down first , he kept staring at my mum to see if she got go down anot . I tell you ahr , heng my mum scold him and bang him to stop him from going down . ( I know my mum is cool BD ) , if not i really think somethin would happen liao lor . Shit manz , ytd was really scary O.O .

Never again , boy .

2010-03-13T23:26:00.003+08:00

My impression of you has totally changed . You were totally not the person i knew before .
What has got into you ? If this thing is gonna get long term .. i think i'll just give up .

Heyy people ! Okayy , today got Src match with Nan Hua , we won 6-3 . Game stoped in 1 hour because it was a rule for this carnival . Sianz .. Ms Tham say they were using their 2nd team , that means the not so good . Haix , cant imagine what the 1st team will be like , ok , i gtg , mum scolding like siao .

2010-02-23T20:30:00.005+08:00

MIA

will be back after common test , can't use com , and nidda study hard ! Also , nationals are comming , so busy yeahh ! But that does not mean you stop tagging alrights B-) !

xoxo ,
Charchar .

Do i still mean anything to you ?

2010-02-19T23:21:00.004+08:00

Hi readers , today nothing much , ordinary school day i guess . After school , had the stupid geog learning journey to a hydroponics farm ? ._. , got free 1 packet of vegetables at least , hahah .. The bus took quite long to come , so we have to wait like 1/2 an hour ? lols , blasted my mp3 at that point of time , wanted to sleep , but afraid to , because i know people will take my unglamm !!! RAWR . TEHE .

After tt , went to mac , slack and eat , we sat at the exact same place everytime we went there , haha (: , sia sway , bayden & ermm .. sry i don't know your name , but hes the pitcher wearing spects , yeahh , lol , so they SIT AT THE TABLE BESIDE US . DIE , BAYDEN = HELL , LOL .
HAHAHAHA , okayy , while we were eating , he hor , kip gl-ing into the conversation !!! %^&%$#% , okayy la , quite funny , but irritationg okayy

! Thnnn hor , he take celia phone , idk furr what at tt time , thn we took his hp lo , i saw through his contacts , don't have his num !!! T.T , I DAMNN SAD , BUT HAVE HIS PIC !!! :DDDD ... sad case , i wanted to send to my hp , thn he want go le ... WA LAU D: . ANYW , you know what he do to celia hp ? hahaha , HE SENT ' I LOVE YOU ' TO RANDOM GUYS , HAHAHAHAHA . DAMNN FUNNY I READ ALL THE REACTIONS , LMAO ! LOL , CELIA WAS DAMN PISSED , AND I THINK STILL IS , SHE SWEARS SHE'LL TAKE HER REVENGE , HAHAHAHA . Don't worry , i'll help you too ((: , thats what friends are for - kicking bayden's ASS , ouhh yeahh ;D .

mayb it's true , i can't live without you ..

xoxo ,
Charchar .

PERCY JACKSON (L)

2010-02-17T19:53:00.002+08:00

HEY YOH ! :D ! Today after sch went out w Qiu Min , Pam , Jia Yi & Justin to watch Percy Jackson & the Lighting Thief !!! OMGOMGOMG , ITS DAMN NICE . HAHAHAHA , so cool kay ! MUST GO WATCH ((: . Anyw , after that , changed to home clothes , went to arcade & blast our monneh ! WOOHOO ;D . Ohh yahh , superr funny , you know Qiu Min today wore the green ' i love my boyfriend ' , tee ? YAH , JUSTIN WORE THE EXACT SAME COLOURED TEE !! HAHAHAHA , THEY SERIOUSLY LOOKED LIKE COUPLES ! But too bad no pic D: , sadsad ! But we got proof in the neoprints ! So go check it out w us yahh ?! XDXD .

Ohh yahh , to th 'abc' who tagged my blog ,
all i can say is ,
FAGG YOU , SCRAM OFF LAA , BUSTARD / BIACH ,
YOU NOTHING BTR TO DO HOR ?
HUM JI DUN WRITE NAME SUMMORE , PLEASE HOR ,
SPAMMERS NOT ALLOWED IN MY BLOG LAA ,
HATE ME JUST FAGGING SCRAM OFF ,
AND I KNOW I FAT , DUNNID REMIND ME TY .

i deleted the tagg yah ? (:

xoxo ,
CharChar .

God bless , oh yes (:

2010-02-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

Hey's people , today was kinda an awesome day ((: . In the afternoon , met up with pampam , went to farrer park , you know , city square mall ? Yeahh , there , hahahahas . We went to shop for SY's gift ;D . Thn we went to some restruant to blow our money on eating , hahahah ! We eat alot siahh ! B-) ! Ohh yahh , you know , cus the drink is free flow derz , then got kid price for the drinks , $1+++ niahh , so me and pampam decided to share . But after tt , the stupid waitress go gan us , sae can't share drink , Budden , dun wan spoil mood laa , so nbm :D , happyhappy ! LOL , so whn the waitress not looking i always faster drink it lo , haahaha . Later , i mrt-ed to kathib , waiten for VIVEN xiao jie , and thn went to Yan li & Adrain's hse . Ate dinner , played badminton for awhile , thn cabbed hme . Ohh yahh , one more thing , the weather these days is damnn freaking hot , agree right ?!

You might be my only one ..

xoxo ,
Charchar .

Hell yeah , you're real cute !

2010-02-15T18:38:00.005+08:00

Yohhh every one ! Currently at Vivien's house now ^^ , tehehe . Can't resist blogging (: , anyw , today went to 2nd lao yi house tuh bai nian , ate lunch , curry was really yummy ;D . Thn slackslack and talk tuh cousins lo (: , smsed henhen too ! XP , he's damn cute laa (: . Ohh yahh , thn suddenly , out of no wher i saw Adrain in a lion dance coustume .. you know , the head ? LOL . He looked cool B-) , hahahahaha , then some uncle of mine go hang the vegetable and ang pao on the celling , hahaha , you know , when the lion dance ppl come , must grab it and dance ? HAHAHAHA , yeah thats wud he did :P , it was damnn funneh . :X Well , since hes kinda short ( NO OFFENCE ) , he was like jumping fur it , cannot reach ! hahaha , so he cheat , use his hand reach out , LOL ! But in the end , hahaha , he keep the ang pao lo (: , lol , deserving laa , put on quite an awesome performance , TEHE . (:

Thn later went to visit ah mas sisters in laws house , you know , since my grandpa passed away , she no one visit her , so quite sad , only got one daughter , not married , live in 1 rm flat ... imagine , just 1 rm ... haix , now i know kinda how lucky i am to have a good enviroment to live in . So i shall not take things granted from now on .

The third paragraph , is regarding the fight between our class unity ... well , respond to that is ... ummm , i think you all should sort things out together , face to face . I'm not siding anyone , but i just think that you all should to tryy to be more forgiving , like .. um try to put the past behind you , because , this kind of things only affect your studies and mood , and this years streaming year so try not to have any trouble .. Sorry if this offends any of you or makes you angry , i'm just trying to have my say .

Time to concentrate on the more important things .

xoxo ,
CharChar .

Slow dancing in a burning room /.

2010-02-13T17:55:00.006+08:00

Hanging by a moment - Lifehouse .

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

xoxo ,
CharChar .

I'm falling even more in love with you .

2010-02-07T22:16:00.005+08:00

Sorry for not posting in a long long time :X , anyway , its a Sunday and there school tomorrow , ._. , gawd , life sucks ): . Basically , i spend today at home : Rotting - Eating - Talking on the Phone - Rotting . LOL . TEHE . ohh yeahh , i did not go to school on Friday though , was down with flu . Which totally SUCKS . But , at least i get to miss a day of school !!! (GRINNS) . HAHAHA ! ...Anyway , you know what , the ALJC thing has affected me at first due to my over sensative nature , but now , i really don't care . Because although i know that somethings they said are true , you know , some of the past mistakes i've made , bt now , i know i'm a changed person , a bit more mature , not so stupid , and i guess , thats what makes me not care anymore . As long as you know that , you've change , and the things that their saying are not true , theres nothing to worry about (: . & thanks to bi and friends for consoling me . Love you guys TTM ! <3

xoxo ,
Charchar .

Perfection ; its imperfect .

2010-01-22T23:13:00.004+08:00

Hi Peeps ! I've got my braces on ! HAHAHAHA , it kinda hurts a lil bit , but not until can't eat laa {: . I put blue & pink , haahahaha . K la K la , i damn lazy to blog now . LOL . The Penang trip may be postponed due to something that has happened in malaysia D: , sian diao ! LOL . I despo wanna go ! Want tuh stay at that flamingo hotel , 4 stars lehh ;D , waaa , shiok siahhs . Can sleep and then oso can escape parents nagging ;D . I go try clothes , tata .

xoxo ,
CharChar .

Dried my eyes and realised .

2010-01-21T20:34:00.003+08:00

Today not bad , hahaha , got english 2 periods though , DAMNNN boring . & eff that Miss Niao lahh ! StupidStupidStupid ! URGH . Whats worse was that , during softball , halfway while we were having a practice match with 'b' girls , IT RAINED . -.- , SIAAAAANNNN , but good news is , tmr got pratice match again ! YAY . HAHAHAHA . Now chionging through my art , so irritating , can't think of any ideas to develop ! RAWR . hahahahaha .

Now of days , the feeling have disappeared , idk why .
Mayb you're not the one .
I can't hang on much longer ,
slipping off .

xoxo ,
CharChar .

Love won't set you free .

2010-01-20T19:53:00.002+08:00

Hey peeps , sry , this would be an uber short post . My tuition starts at 8pm , LAWLS . Sian , math again ! Tmr got match with 'B' girls , YAY ! 1st so called real match lor , hope can win ;D , but even if we don't win , must do our best alrights ? ;D . Gosh , i hatehatehate Ms 'Niao' , seriously manz , she sucks ! Treat us like some pri school kids -,- , wtf . Please , pri school methods won;t work on us , ok , omg teacher knocking , gtg !

xoxo ,
CharChar .

Maybe two is better than one .

2010-01-18T18:56:00.003+08:00

Hey people , just came back from softball training , quite shack , hahahas . Sian , 7pm got chinese tuition ! =.=|| . Today played Rounder , with the C boys . HAHAHAHA , cus we got nth to do , so play lor XD . It was damnnnn fun (: , heh . Thursday got friendly math with B' girls ! AHHHH , i abit scared , cus they damn gud lor .. But i think hor , if we can beat them , we can beat the whole Singapore's C' girls ! XD , i really think so , but i won't be complacent laa .. will still train hard :D . I Zi Lian with Vivien Yesterday , again . Will post the pictures another time , because tuition teacher comming soon ! Ciao (: .

xoxo ,
CharChar .

You are my only one .

2010-01-17T14:03:00.004+08:00

My skin is itching like mad ! Must be the prawns i ate yesterday -.- . Anyway , i have my thoughts sorted out clearly . I don't care if he likes me or not , because i love him . Its okay if he likes other girls ( although i don't know if he likes me or not ) , hahahaha (: . He's damn guai lan . But nice laa . :X . Hmmm , so anyway , tmr chinese 1st period , sianz ! I haven do any of the Chinese hmwk {: , i tmr then do zuo ye , then writing Tuesday then pass up , cus got chinese tutor help me ^^ . & i'm going to softball tomorrow ! HAHAHAHA . I really love training . Its something to look forward to everyday . I'm gonna go for all the trainings everyday mon-fri until the nationals end . But i will balance my studies with my CCA , so that i do well in both . I'll promise myself to train in the afternoon , and study at night . Well , im'm gonna prepare to go ah ma house now , hehe (: , Vivien is going tonight !!! *GRINS* , cousin for life yahh ? <3 .

xoxo ,
Charchar .

Love is unconditional .

2010-01-16T23:57:00.003+08:00

Hey guys , its 12am , and my mood is swinging madly . Here's the thing yahh , i like someone now , i don't know if he has the hots for me , but i was chatting with tissany on msn , and she said that , if i love the person , i would love him unconditionally , i mean like , how can i do that ? I don't know , she also said that it comes naturally .. i mean like how ? I've forgotten those feelings . I've gotta sleep now , mums calling me to go to bed .

xoxo ,
Charchar .

Is this all just my imagination ?

2010-01-14T19:55:00.006+08:00

YOH . Today woke up at 6.30 as usual , LOL . Thn reach sch like 7.15 , realised that i haben do my math hmwk (LOL) , thn copy lo :X , hahaha . After that , idk why , we were late for assembly ._. , all our 2D was late , execpt like 5 people ! HAHA . this shows that 2d's damn united yahh ? ;D . TEHEHE . Kena long lecture by Ms Goh , followed by something related to softball . Yah , so 1st period was math , so sian . Aftr that , got english in Ms. Liao's class =.= . But it was kinda not boring today ! Maybe its because of him . Haha , i'm damn happy . During lit today , we did abit on Romeo & Juilet , it was funny {: , the singer kip singing in the show , " I'm kissing you now " , okay , i was disgusted , although it sounded nice , but i just wanna laugh , andand , i find the story damn stupid laa , Juilet fake her death to be with Romeo , then when Romeo found out that Juilet was so called 'dead' , he killed himself with poison . ~_~ . Coincidentally , Juillet wakes up in her coffin or whatever , to find Romeo , well - dead . So blablabla , crycrycry , and committed suicide , by stabbing herself with Romeo's sword . =.=|| . zzzzz , how ironic is that ? Bleah :X . So after school , had training again . So fun ! LOL . i hurt my finger while bunting ): , but it isn't as bad as me hitting YanZhen with a machine ball ! OMG , im super sorry !!! Honestly sorry !!! D: ... Idk why , his and my eyes always meet . Okayokay , i can't say the details out , incase another big mouth spreads it again . Come ask me , i'll tell you . I haben do my zuo ye and eng , AHHHHHHHHHHH . TATA , I GO DO (: .

I'm so happy , baby !
I can't stop thinking about you !
Hope to see you tomorrow , love .

xoxo ,
Charchar .

Competitiveness alway hurt .

2010-01-13T19:29:00.008+08:00

Okayy , hahaha , so my internets finally working after a longlonglong time ! Tehehe XD , hmm , so this is the 1st post of the new year 2010 :D . Okayy , so basically , today was pretty boring , especially when got Mr Goh and Ms Liao's class =.= , its damn boring , and Mr Goh keeps repeating the same thing all over again . You know what , i kindly told him that he's repeating the population in the world , blahblahblah thing agn , you know what he ans back ' yah , i know . ' , and then he continue to talk about the same stuff ? Its damn boring uhh , wanna slp ! HAHAHA , actually today Ms liaos class not thast bad , cus we did some stupid writing stuff and then we drew soume damn wired pictures on the paper , as we are sapose to describe the people in the passage using our own words and stuff , but Celia and i did it fast so we got bored and drew , its actually very nice ! LOL .

LOOOOOOOOOLS , nice right ? HAHAHAHA . okayyyokayy . O.O , later , went softballing with Celia , Tissany , Oliva and Aqilah . Oliva went home halfway , so left 3 of us . Kay lahh , hahaha , softball today quite fun . Ai yahh , i very hungry , sian , mom still not back ._. .

Omg , idk why , but im super missing you manz ! <3

xoxo ,
Charchar .